To persist or give up?

How I wish I could read what's on your mind. I'm so happy that I managed to see you the day before yesterday and yesterday again. Despite it's only a short while, seeing you makes me smile. Are you subtly drifting away from me? Your text become lesser day by day and soon our conversation become more awkward. Tell me how to deal my feelings for you? To persist or give up? Soon, you will be abroad for six months. I don't even know whether you will be coming back? Will you still think of me? Will you miss me? Or perhaps, I'm thinking way too much. Maybe you treat other ladies the same way as me.. Why am I such a fool for you? ):

Whole crew! 

At Swee Choon

Car ride to CQ! 

With bestie, Cheryl!

Birthday girl Crystal!

Happy 20th birthday, Crystal! Hope you enjoyed yesterday celebration at Swee Choon and Chupitos! (:

Crush

Tell me if you like me? I dont want to wait. Yet, I dont want to miss the opportunity. I've done my part. I wanna know what are you thinking? What's with the mixed signals? Is it because I'm too young for you? Am I not attractive enough for you? There are so many questions on my mind. All day all night I think about you. I cant focus with my studies. I'm going all out for you despite knowing that I will embarrass myself even if you reject me. Thanks for being such a gentleman. I want you to know that you leave a good impression on me. I'm contented that you are willing to hangout with me last night. I love it when you hold my hand. Being with you just give me a sense of security. Whenever I smell your cologne, I would like to hug you and sleep in your arms. And most importantly, I miss you.. 

Feeling down.. ):

So.. I got a message saying that I did not get into the bboy club. That kind of hurts a little. But I just take it as a blessing as I may not be able to commit to the CCA due to school work. Right now, I just want to take a break from work to give my full concentration on my studies. Oh yeah, I lose my voice due to partying last Wednesday. I should had restrain myself from drinking alcohol. Damn man..

With Brandon my homeboy!

With Hyungie!

With Mr Okay.

With Tivya my babygirl! 

Whole party mates!!

I felt really down yesterday that the moment I reached home, I cried while chatting with my dad. Man, it felt like Friday blues. I felt like I lose track of my life for a moment. Tons of things to do that are incomplete. What's more unnecessary small quarrels, it just made me feel so sick of everything. I just feel like escaping from reality once in awhile. But the moment I wake up, the vicious cycle happens again. I can hide from reality, but I cant run away from it. I need some time alone to do some self-reflection.

Sick

OT nurse wannabe

Its 2.24am right now. Just finished bathing and massaging my aching thighs. So I kind of went for a CCA audition which is bboy. Damn, I suck at it. It was such an embarrassing moment. I stood in the middle of the dance studio when it was time for freestyle and watched others dance. I do hope that I will get in still. It's my dream to learn how to breakdance. But I always have a fear of going for dance class. I don't know why but it's kinda of weird isn it? Ever since Last Sunday, I've been having dry cough and flu. What's more, I'm gonna party later on. I need to get more rest. Lesson starts at 8am later on. Goodnight! :D

Ladies night last Wednesday

I wanna live freely. No more arguing, no more dealing with nonsensical people. I'm sick of everything. When will it stop?  

 Now playing: https://soundcloud.com/rayjonesjukebox/my-love

Year 3 student; Senior

Study time!

School officially starts today and hello to the Year 3 me!! Time really passes so fast that I still cant believe the fact that I'm a senior. I really love my current timetable. Despite I end at 6pm almost everyday, I either have long breaks or I start school at 2pm. Say what? Hell yeah to lesser modules man! I have only one goal for my last year in school which is to work hard and score a good GPA! Waste no time and I'm gonna hit my books! Goodnight all! :D

Rachel's 18th birthday!

 

Celebrated Rachel's 18th birthday at Wimbly Lu Chocolates. Its a cafe that is famous for their dessert. We walked from Serangoon mrt station and I swear it was so inaccessible. It will be better to drive there because it's in the middle of nowhere of some terrace houses.

Here is the link of the cafe: http://www.wimblylu.com/

Hyung

With Cheryl and Crystal

With Hyung

After dinner, Cheryl and I met up with Yuting at Clarke Quay. Since it's ladies night, we head to Attica to party for an hour. We met up with the rest at Zouk for round 2 of party! Damn, it was so fun last night. Kinda of reminds me of Australia (Sincity).

Party with my man! 

With clique at Zouk.

Anyway, it calls for a celebration for me last night because I've gotten a reply from CGH. Hell yeah! Time passed so fast and school's gonna start for me next Monday. This means that I need to pack my luggage tomorrow to move back to Grandpa's house. Oh man.. 

Friend/Boyfriend?

When your friend and boyfriend are in a dispute, what will you do? I understand that you will be put in a difficult spot. But as a girlfriend, you gotta know what is right and wrong. Your boyfriend made insulting comments about me. He can get away by saying its all a joke while I gotta apologize to him for misunderstanding his words. For fuck sake, dont you think he is wrong too? Think about it girl, who was the one who asked me to say all my unhappiness? Just because I was being straightforward with my words, you are feeling hurt. Are you kidding me? The reason why I apologized is because I cant stand it when you text my friend every single day to ask me to apologize to your boyfriend. Best part of all, he could only reply with an "um". Oh, is not that I didn apologize to him before, I did. But it was not enough for a petty "man" like him. Now I have a clearer view of whom my true friends are. So what if our friendship is more than 9 years? You can even suspect me of crushing over my friend's boyfriend? Oh woah. *claps* I'm amazed. You told my friend to doubt me and made me feel guilty to my friend on the other hand. What's wrong with you? Before that I was blinded by our friendship, but now I'm not. On the other hand, thanks for the aussie trip. I grew closer to my best friend and letting me see both of your true colours. I will just end my post here. I dont want to expose all of your dirty doings, my little angelic friend.