Thoughts

Gone were the nights that I cried. Thank you for telling me the truth. Honesty is what I'm looking for from you. It's time to move on Jasmine. You know you can get over him. :D 

With Claire

Met up with Claire last Saturday. Felt bad because I kept postponing our date due to me who fell ill last week. ): Went on a shopping spree to cheer myself up a little. We were having our usual beer session at Chupitos. Had a good sleep at Gramps' place and mugged the whole of Sunday. I was on course with Sukma today. After work, we headed to Eastpoint and there was book sales going on. Sukma was being such a sweetie to pay for my books too. Cant wait to read them!! ;D 

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Crystal's 21st birthday!

Happy 21st Crystal! :D 

Had a long weekend today due to Vesak day. So last Friday after work, I rushed home to prepare for Crystal's 21st cocktail party. Man, I looked so tired and sleepy. Everyone was playing drinking game while I went upstairs to zonk out first because I was having a bad sore throat. The next day, we were chilling at Crystal's place and we were like having endless conversations such as nightmares and lucid dreams. We do talked about random topics. Hahaha. Went home to shower and headed out to town to find for Rachel's Dr Martens boots. Seems like most of the shops does not sell the boots she wanted in her size. So we decided to head to Fiv Tapas bar for happy hours. Anyway, it's been long since we had a night out by ourselves without em guys. The night was cray but I woke up losing my voice on Sunday. Cant imagine how am I gonna talk to my patients and colleagues tomorrow? /:

To him: 

I dont get it. Why? Am I boring or are you bored of me? I sacrificed my sleep for you just to wait for your text. Despite I'm busy with work, I do make time for you. Our time difference is madness. I hate it because it's killing me that I dont get to chat with you that often. I even planned to travel to visit you in Seattle. Unless what you are telling me beforehand was all full of lies? I felt like a fool. Countless times I felt like giving up, but I persevered on because people tell me that "love has no boundaries". I thought you were someone special. But I guess I made the judgement way too fast. ): 

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Focus

Finally I'm done with my presentation today. Enough of being angst last week. It sucks so bad because I had minor wisdom tooth infection last Wednesday and tightening of my braces appointment at the same time. Haven been sleeping well last week because I have been staying up late trying to collate and doing slides for my group members despite I was sick. At least two locals were sweet enough to text me whether I need help for the presentation. It was indeed a crazy week. I managed to vent out all my frustration last Saturday night. Thanks to my homegirl for being there to be my listening ear. Spent the whole night at the Chupitos bar drinking. Head over to Bang Bang for after party with my girl. I ended up falling on the floor when I was about to leave home. I sustained a big bruise over my left foot. Luckily it doesnt hurt that bad now when I walk. I cant wait for my graduation ceremony tomorrow! :D

P.S: If only you know how much you mean to me.. ):

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Working world

With Aishah

With Adeline, Syarizal and Aishah

SN :D 

Felt like I have neglected my blog for a little while aint it? Anyway, I have started work at CGH since this Monday. Basically we have to go through an orientation for a month. I'm so excited yet nervous because 2 months ago I was wearing a student nurse uniform and right now, I'm SN Jasmine donning on CGH uniform. Also, among the sea of nurses, I'm the only one posted to endoscopy dept. It's gonna be a little different from the ward. But I'm sure there must be a reason why the AD allocated me to the dept to work! So like the seniors always said: "Come to work with a positive mindset and be pro-active." Being in a grown up world is so weird. I felt this sudden responsibility in me towards work, family and what not. Recently, I'm having a bad PMS and I felt bad to Max because it seems that I'm always harsh to him. ): I guess he seen different sides of me already. And I really really do appreciate him for still being sweet to me and sending me selfies at unexpected moment to update me what is happening in his life. Seeing his text makes my heart tingles. He just makes me adore him even more each day. :D 

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A sky full of stars

Up since 6.30am and I had a long day in school till 6pm. Feeling hella shitty thus decided to take a breather at my fave hangout place. Sitting at my fave spot, looking up at the sky thinking about the remaining days you left in Singapore. I thought I could live without you or even stop missing you. But I guess my heart and mind is thinking differently. Six months is neither long nor short. Many things can take place within these period. Will you still keep in contact with me? Will you still remember me when you are back? I guess the only solution is to take things naturally by going with the flow. If we are meant to be, we will be. Sometimes people just fall in love at the wrong time. Isn it? 

Feeling down.. ):

So.. I got a message saying that I did not get into the bboy club. That kind of hurts a little. But I just take it as a blessing as I may not be able to commit to the CCA due to school work. Right now, I just want to take a break from work to give my full concentration on my studies. Oh yeah, I lose my voice due to partying last Wednesday. I should had restrain myself from drinking alcohol. Damn man..

With Brandon my homeboy!

With Hyungie!

With Mr Okay.

With Tivya my babygirl! 

Whole party mates!!

I felt really down yesterday that the moment I reached home, I cried while chatting with my dad. Man, it felt like Friday blues. I felt like I lose track of my life for a moment. Tons of things to do that are incomplete. What's more unnecessary small quarrels, it just made me feel so sick of everything. I just feel like escaping from reality once in awhile. But the moment I wake up, the vicious cycle happens again. I can hide from reality, but I cant run away from it. I need some time alone to do some self-reflection.