To persist or give up?

How I wish I could read what's on your mind. I'm so happy that I managed to see you the day before yesterday and yesterday again. Despite it's only a short while, seeing you makes me smile. Are you subtly drifting away from me? Your text become lesser day by day and soon our conversation become more awkward. Tell me how to deal my feelings for you? To persist or give up? Soon, you will be abroad for six months. I don't even know whether you will be coming back? Will you still think of me? Will you miss me? Or perhaps, I'm thinking way too much. Maybe you treat other ladies the same way as me.. Why am I such a fool for you? ):

Whole crew! 

At Swee Choon

Car ride to CQ! 

With bestie, Cheryl!

Birthday girl Crystal!

Happy 20th birthday, Crystal! Hope you enjoyed yesterday celebration at Swee Choon and Chupitos! (:

Crush

Tell me if you like me? I dont want to wait. Yet, I dont want to miss the opportunity. I've done my part. I wanna know what are you thinking? What's with the mixed signals? Is it because I'm too young for you? Am I not attractive enough for you? There are so many questions on my mind. All day all night I think about you. I cant focus with my studies. I'm going all out for you despite knowing that I will embarrass myself even if you reject me. Thanks for being such a gentleman. I want you to know that you leave a good impression on me. I'm contented that you are willing to hangout with me last night. I love it when you hold my hand. Being with you just give me a sense of security. Whenever I smell your cologne, I would like to hug you and sleep in your arms. And most importantly, I miss you.. 

Feeling down.. ):

So.. I got a message saying that I did not get into the bboy club. That kind of hurts a little. But I just take it as a blessing as I may not be able to commit to the CCA due to school work. Right now, I just want to take a break from work to give my full concentration on my studies. Oh yeah, I lose my voice due to partying last Wednesday. I should had restrain myself from drinking alcohol. Damn man..

With Brandon my homeboy!

With Hyungie!

With Mr Okay.

With Tivya my babygirl! 

Whole party mates!!

I felt really down yesterday that the moment I reached home, I cried while chatting with my dad. Man, it felt like Friday blues. I felt like I lose track of my life for a moment. Tons of things to do that are incomplete. What's more unnecessary small quarrels, it just made me feel so sick of everything. I just feel like escaping from reality once in awhile. But the moment I wake up, the vicious cycle happens again. I can hide from reality, but I cant run away from it. I need some time alone to do some self-reflection.